Algebraic Paradox
It has been over a month since I my last post and things have not changed much considering the fact that change is a universal constant. As I sit back and reflect on the changes that have taken place and my movement forward in life, I realize that I am farther away from the absolute than I was a month back. It is just one of those phases when you tend to run from something and realize that you have been pushed closer to the truth.
As I worked harder to bring my average shot per hole from "Par + 3" to around "Par + 1.5", I also realized that I had lost focus in several other things. Working hard on my golfing skills, I seem to have more internal conflicts than external. The questionsthat rise are becoming more inward directed than outward. The self realization process seems to picked up quite a bit of steam. Pondering over those moments of innocence and childishness, I feel lost - completely lost amongst the millions who wake up everyday to follow the routine that has been imposed upon by themselves without meaning or purpose.
Making tough decisions is an everyday aspect of human life and I have not been an exception to it. That last month has beenquite a challenging period in the evolution process and I must admit that I have not been able to make certain tough decisions, probably because of the conflict of interest associated with those decisions.
I must attribute this "valuable" learning experience to the game of golf. I have heard of people talking about the game as boring, dull, etc., etc., but its just beyond that. The game has taught me to fight against odds, against probability, against myselfand come up as a better person. I know for a fact that everytime I finish my game and walk out of the course I have become mentally stronger.
Being mentally tough is a new aspect of life that I have learnt. As a kid, I was never the "sportsperson" that I always dreamt ofbeing. Winning was always an "off the field" occurence. The taste of success was not something I was familair with. However,the past month has been a period where I have experienced that - winning against myself and opponents- A combination of being mentally tough on the field and tasting success and being consistent. These are aspects that I am learning to apply "off the field" and perceive it to be a combination of "Sourav Ganguly and Steve Jobs".
Despite all the growing up process and becoming mentally tougher, I have realized that there are situations when the heartprevails over the mind or vice-versa (depending upon which is voluntary and involuntary). There is always someone in everybody's life, who has the ability to defy all the laws that govern gravity and other intangible elements. The situation arises when you ask yourself the question - "What would you do then? What will you give up? What can you do tomake things work?" - Unfortunately, in most of the cases, the question is more of a rhetoric and the chain reaction of selfdestruction has already begun. Some people are gifted in their ability to terminate the process at an early stage, some peoplelearn through experience and some people are just unlucky. I would put myself in the category that learns through experience.But sometimes, life throws up a challenge where you land up in a situation you were in 9 years back - presented with the same choices that were before you that very same day, 9 years back. A situation that resulted in life's greatest challengesfrom within oneself, that took 4 years to overcome. What would you do - Run away from it? Face it? In either case, the outcomeis known and the process is just reduntant - "A system based approach" where you are a variable in a second degree algebraic equation that is just trying to balance itself.
Growing up, I like millions of others was taught the basic rules and laws that govern anything and everything under the sun. Hence when an "experienced person" imparts his/her knowledge, the mind was tuned to accept it and learn to live within those rules. Suddenly, when you start to question those very basic laws/rules that govern certain aspects and work beyond them, it opens up a new world - a world of possibilities and choices.
Imagine, imposing yourself as a constant in the same second degree algebraic equation that continues to pose a tough challenge - The possibilities are infinite!
Choice - is an interesting word and looking beyond the choices that one does not understand is something that I have alwaysthought was an impossible task. However, I have realized that "impossibility" is not a choice and hence I can definitely lookbeyond it and thus see beyond the choices I do not understand - Quite a paradox!
As I worked harder to bring my average shot per hole from "Par + 3" to around "Par + 1.5", I also realized that I had lost focus in several other things. Working hard on my golfing skills, I seem to have more internal conflicts than external. The questionsthat rise are becoming more inward directed than outward. The self realization process seems to picked up quite a bit of steam. Pondering over those moments of innocence and childishness, I feel lost - completely lost amongst the millions who wake up everyday to follow the routine that has been imposed upon by themselves without meaning or purpose.
Making tough decisions is an everyday aspect of human life and I have not been an exception to it. That last month has beenquite a challenging period in the evolution process and I must admit that I have not been able to make certain tough decisions, probably because of the conflict of interest associated with those decisions.
I must attribute this "valuable" learning experience to the game of golf. I have heard of people talking about the game as boring, dull, etc., etc., but its just beyond that. The game has taught me to fight against odds, against probability, against myselfand come up as a better person. I know for a fact that everytime I finish my game and walk out of the course I have become mentally stronger.
Being mentally tough is a new aspect of life that I have learnt. As a kid, I was never the "sportsperson" that I always dreamt ofbeing. Winning was always an "off the field" occurence. The taste of success was not something I was familair with. However,the past month has been a period where I have experienced that - winning against myself and opponents- A combination of being mentally tough on the field and tasting success and being consistent. These are aspects that I am learning to apply "off the field" and perceive it to be a combination of "Sourav Ganguly and Steve Jobs".
Despite all the growing up process and becoming mentally tougher, I have realized that there are situations when the heartprevails over the mind or vice-versa (depending upon which is voluntary and involuntary). There is always someone in everybody's life, who has the ability to defy all the laws that govern gravity and other intangible elements. The situation arises when you ask yourself the question - "What would you do then? What will you give up? What can you do tomake things work?" - Unfortunately, in most of the cases, the question is more of a rhetoric and the chain reaction of selfdestruction has already begun. Some people are gifted in their ability to terminate the process at an early stage, some peoplelearn through experience and some people are just unlucky. I would put myself in the category that learns through experience.But sometimes, life throws up a challenge where you land up in a situation you were in 9 years back - presented with the same choices that were before you that very same day, 9 years back. A situation that resulted in life's greatest challengesfrom within oneself, that took 4 years to overcome. What would you do - Run away from it? Face it? In either case, the outcomeis known and the process is just reduntant - "A system based approach" where you are a variable in a second degree algebraic equation that is just trying to balance itself.
Growing up, I like millions of others was taught the basic rules and laws that govern anything and everything under the sun. Hence when an "experienced person" imparts his/her knowledge, the mind was tuned to accept it and learn to live within those rules. Suddenly, when you start to question those very basic laws/rules that govern certain aspects and work beyond them, it opens up a new world - a world of possibilities and choices.
Imagine, imposing yourself as a constant in the same second degree algebraic equation that continues to pose a tough challenge - The possibilities are infinite!
Choice - is an interesting word and looking beyond the choices that one does not understand is something that I have alwaysthought was an impossible task. However, I have realized that "impossibility" is not a choice and hence I can definitely lookbeyond it and thus see beyond the choices I do not understand - Quite a paradox!
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